waiting to talk to u

“I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.”

this line touched my heart, it evolved my feelings, i am waiting for you and dont know.

my Justification

Every time when some how any one show my fault / a sin
I generally do is togive a justification
but when i thinked about it keenly i found that i am justifying to avoid a shame by saying lies
ya you have learned it in bible, remmber the person to whom jesus said you will deny me three times in people
every time when he was denying jesus he as giving a justification

but later when the cosk roared he find that what he did and it was told by jesus earlier, he felt guilty of what he did.

Dear friends we are doing the same many times in a day, i am sorry i did this many time.
but later when ifind it i felt guily

QUESTION: what should i do to get out of this guiltiness
Answer to this question is only given by christ and is in Christianity, Confess and apologize it.

This is the remedy to get out of such sin and to avoid such circumstances further.

JESUS my saviour, please let us out of sin, let us make good to our neghbiour, let allow us to help others and follow your words.

AMEN

i wished to decorate u

i thought you were mine
i was selfish

i wish to decorate u
i loved u

i wish to motivate u
i cared for you

I wished to facinate u
you were so precious to me

my thoughts are now empty
my visions are now just a waste

i to fight to you so that i can love you like a double
i want to make you happy

i want don't want to hurt you because
i was whom who will be massacred in ur eyes

you were my sweetheart
please have mercy on me

remmebered you

i was imagining her while sitting at the porch, while she is sitting aside with   her hairs spread like cloud. she looked at me with a naked vision , i saw a smile in her eyes.
she deflected her head like she is calling me towards her.
i did flashed a smile, and went toward her,
i was near to her, holding her arms, we were drowned in each others eyes and were sharing our thoughts with our eyes...there was a deep link worrking between us, and the unspoken words can only be understood by us.
the call of our love was becoming strong,
it has a seduction like a jar full of wine,
no words but many words
no sense but million meanings
no breath but beating hearts

my dream broke, i wake up from an dream by open eyes, she is not with me, she left me, she never cared for me, now my eyes are wet ..........

yesterday i was standing on the terrace, i remembered my wife, she was very hard to me from the date of our marriage, she didnt spend a few good moments with me, i waited for her to talk about us but she never gave me time to talk,
oh she neither showed a affection, she never asked a question or sit beside to me when i was sick, while i have nursed her give her food by my hands when she felt ill once.
an animal will show courtesy if anyone take care of it, but she doesn't showed any sympathy to me,
she self confessed in our last conversation when i tried to rejoin at her house, "I need a reason to leave u and i got it now, we dont have love, so i left" the words fall like a lightening on me..
my ears are blown, my heart stopped beating, and a question was roaming "how can u decide i never loved u" she never gave an answer ..............